Where do I find you?

Searching you in my diaries
and tiny chits in my cupboard,
a message that could remind me
that my life isn't absurd,
turning you into insanity,
framing you in my frustration;
do I find you somewhere else
except in the dungeons of my mental palace;
writing me letters,
that reach the letterbox of my heart,
as I loose my way in the caves,
whose walls echo my calling,
and scream when I scream.
The distances are covering,
when I scream louder,
your images are clear
behind the walls of time
as I look for you, far
in the night sky;
part of a galaxy
of love, and devotion.
and call you from my window,
a phenomenon;
that brings dreams to my sleep,
or a phenomenon;
that takes away my sleep.

Where do I find you?
I have searched you in my diaries.

- Syed Rehan